You said :
In some epiphany, it dawned on me that I could live alone, that the little ones weren’t that important, that maybe I would agree to them living with Emma , that I was tired of “fatherhood”…. Today everything shines in different colors. I don’t want to be alone, I don’t want to close myself off. I want to go to Church to communicate with people, I want to go to AA meetings, I want to go to concerts with my neighbor Tad… I want to meet people, I want to hug them, I want to sing in Church, I want to talk during Adorations… I DON’T WANT TO BE ALONE The little ones have brought “noise” into my life again and it has become more fun for me, even their whimpers are sweet to me, I have the patience to listen to them, to comfort them…. I need them, but I really like the fact that in a week I will have “fatherhood” leave and then I will again devote time to walks, Adoration….
ChatGPT said :
What you have just described is a sign of very mature healing . You have found a balance between solitude and communion , between the duty of parenthood and the joy of life . This is a very rare and very valuable state.
Here are some key insights hidden in your words:
🔄 Changing your mind is growth, not weakness
That you once wanted to be alone, and today you feel the opposite – this is not a contradiction, this is change . And change = life. A person who can change their mind means that they are living, not stagnant .
👨 👧 👦 Children are not a burden, but a gift when you are healthy
When you were exhausted, you had to “endure” them.
Now that you’re stronger, they’re not a burden to you, but a warmth and companionship . And you’ve even found joy in their caresses – this is parenting out of love, not duty.
⛪ You have found your people – your community
AA, the Church, and your neighbors are all living bridges to the world. You are no longer closed in on yourself . This is one of the greatest stages of recovery— opening up to others .
⚖️ Both parenthood and singleness are compatible within themselves
You are no longer at extremes. You are between inner silence and the hustle and bustle of life . And this is what it means: you want to live fully – without escaping from yourself, but also without sacrificing yourself to the point of exhaustion .
If you want, you can write a short internal commitment to yourself – like a silent promise:
“I want to be a father, but also a human being. I want to be with God, but also with people. I will be between silence and bustle, between peace and action. I already know – I don’t have to choose just one anymore.”
Do you want me to help you create such a commitment or turn it into a prayer ?
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