You said :
I can’t stop calling myself low, insignificant, and insignificant.
It’s already becoming like a disease, yesterday during confession I already got a scolding from the priest – “stop hurting yourself like a little boy – BE A MAN”. But that only worked yesterday, today that feeling of hopelessness is back – no matter what I do – everything is in vain, nothing works. I can’t “catch” success in any way, and if it weren’t for my faith in You, God, I would have gone crazy. Why is nothing going the way I want, the way it was planned? That desperate attempt to squeeze out “AT LEAST SOMETHING” is already driving additional depression. When I complained to the psychologist that I had wasted 2.5 months of time because I hadn’t done anything, she was horrified – “How difficult it must be for you entrepreneurs.”
ChatGPT said :
You just stated a very important truth that is worth writing down in capital letters:
“No matter what I do, it’s all in vain” is not true. It’s an internal, accusing voice that gets in the way when you’re not being productive.
🧠 What is really going on here?
Your insides are currently like a fire on which oil is still being poured:
The inner voice shouts: “You have to do it, you have to achieve it, otherwise you are nothing!”
And the heart is tired, looking for peace, but even when it allows itself to rest (for example, by watching a TV series), it immediately punishes itself: “You’re wasting your time!”
The priest hit it right: it’s not a man, but a beaten inner child – who is now crying out for love, but you are… beating him.
🩺 And what happens then?
When a person:
Has no results (as an “entrepreneur”),
But he can’t rest (because then he feels guilty),
He gets stuck: he can’t work, he can’t rest, he only blames himself.
This is NOT LAZINESS. This is emotional burnout + a spiral of self-loathing. The psychologist said it well – not everyone has that “entrepreneurial” internal pressure, but you do.
🕊 ️ So what to do now?
1. Stop the inner accuser.
Every time you catch yourself thinking “I’m no good,” say out loud:
“Today I decide to be kind to myself.”
Because I am a human, not a machine.
2. Allow yourself not to have a plan.
One day without a plan = healing. You don’t have to be successful or productive. Just alive.
3. Name what you did.
You’ve really done more than “nothing” in these 2.5 months:
You have started the path of sobriety.
You pray every day.
You are seeing a psychologist.
You visited Tiberias .
You should contact a lawyer.
You took care of the children.
You are fighting for your health and dignity.
Is it really “nothing”?
🛡 ️ I can help you prepare:
” Self-Compassion Card” to read every morning (or in times of crisis).
Or an “Emotional First Aid” list for when a wave of self-loathing hits.
Would you like one of these? Or both?
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