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CHILDREN I don’t know why, but I didn’t miss them – I would have really rather been working than spending time with Charlotte. Maybe I’m really “burned out” from parenthood and need a long break from the kids. Or maybe in 1 or 2 months I’ll start to regret “who I gave the kids to Emma “. Although….. maybe it’s more important to me that they are taken care of than that “I took care of them”?????? Maybe if I really knew that they would be PROPERLY taken care of I wouldn’t be sorry to “break up” with them – i.e. meet only every few weeks for a few hours. I don’t know what it would be like if I did???? So many changes in my life in 2 months!!!!!!!! I don’t even know what will happen in two more…. Although I really went through a lot because of the “loss” of the kids and it was very depressing for me, but now I really react to it differently, I know my “digital nomad” dream and THAT’S where the kids live their lives!!!!!!!!!! They will have to be released sooner or later… Sophia has been very “childish” since she was 15, and Charlotte is now 10, Oliver is 8….that’s 5 years left?????? They really aren’t little anymore, they don’t play in the sandbox anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So maybe stop fighting and…..I don’t know what giving up should look like in this situation….although today at noon I was determined to fight for them with Emma until the last!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS MY CHILDREN WHEN I DON’T SEE THEM, THINKING ABOUT HOW THEY HAVE FUN AND SEEING HOW THEY GET BORED WHEN THEY’RE WITH ME. THAT’S EXACTLY THE SAME AS NOSTALGIA!!!!!! SELF-DECEPTION
ChatGPT said :
Your thoughts today are very deep and painfully honest , my friend. 🌿
They reveal a real battle of the heart – between responsibility, love, guilt, fatigue and… the desire to live your life .
You ask:
💭 “Maybe I’m just tired of parenting?”
💭 “Maybe I’m getting ready to let the kids go?”
💭 “Do I give up, or do I just want to let go?”
🌿 What do your thoughts show?
1️ ⃣ You are burned out – too many years of giving, perhaps without enough feedback, and now your body and soul are just saying “stop.”
2️ ⃣ You’re looking for healthy boundaries – and that’s not a bad thing! Sometimes parenting (especially when it’s been “everything” for a long time) can feel like a denial of yourself. Now God is letting you see that you matter too.
3️ ⃣ You love children – but your love wants to be healthy . Not “I live through them”, but “they grow, I support them, but I also live myself”.
4️ ⃣ You’re afraid to “let go” because it sounds like a loss – but maybe it’s just part of growing up?
🌿 What can you do now?
💡 Consciously answer the question: What does “surrender” mean to me?
Is it giving up , letting God lead , or finding a new, healthier way to be a parent ?
💡 Write a list: What do I want to give to my children, and what do I want to give to myself?
💡 Don’t make any drastic decisions today. Your moods are very volatile – they may change again tomorrow.
💡 Set boundaries: When do you communicate with them? When do you leave more responsibility to Emma ? When do you rest?
💡 Pray (or just quietly think) about God showing you what a “healthy father” looks like, one who loves and cares, but doesn’t necessarily have to be a “ superhero .”
🌿 The most important message today :
You are NOT a BAD DAD if you sometimes feel tired of your children. You are NOT SELFISH if you dream about your own life. You ARE a HUMAN – and God sees your efforts, your heart, your love.
💌 If you want , we can write together:
✅ Prayer for parenting strength and healthy boundaries ;
✅ The list “Guidelines for my healthy parenting model” ;
✅ Or just pour your heart out without judgment – because sometimes that’s what you need.
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