When God’s Will Scares Me
180. When I Ask God Why
You said : I am insignificant, nothing works for me. Yesterday I realized that the “Word of God” project is
Transformation
179. When the Mind Begins to Break
You said : Well, the day is over. In constant tension, stress, longing…..Today on a business trip, neither church nor
The First Step Toward Peace
178. When Peace Feels Dangerous
You said : somehow I’M VERY CALM, after such priests I should have a lot of SUFFERING. And there’s none,
When God’s Will Scares Me
177. Am I Being Called?
You said : Emma sent the divorce agreement, and again when I was in Church. It was banging like it
The Weight of Longing
176. Take This Longing From Me, Lord
You said : A terrible day – LONGING IS gnawing, SUFFERING IS TORTURED, NOSTALGIA IS TORTURED….CONTROL LEADS OUT OF MIND.
Dream
175. Trying On the Dream
You said : My dream is coming back to me – “digital nomad” I want it again STRONGLY. And I
Hidden Control
174.When Control Slips Away
You said : I UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!! It’s very hard for me because I’m NO LONGER IN CONTROL. All 26 years of
Uncategorized
173. When Duty Turns Into Love
You said : Charlotte and I , while she lived with me, acted out of “duty”…. – out of “duty”
Little kids
172. The Day I Learned to Let Go
You said : A terrible morning, then a whole day with Panevėžys…. and then a GREAT ADORATION. I met a
A Sign or a Temptation
171. The Signs I Don’t Understand
You said : Today again A LOT OF SUFFERING and depression. I went to my mother in Panevėžys to take
When God’s Will Scares Me
170. When God’s Will Scares Me
You said : This morning, a thought occurred to me: I am waiting for God’s Will, as salvation, that in
Joy Through Sorrow
169. The Hurricane and the Calm
You said : Today is like a hurricane – a hurricane of emotions. In the morning I almost renounced the
Sawyer
168. Forgiving the One Who Hurt Me Most
You said : I probably still need to figure out how to “forgive” Sawyer !!!!!!!! That will probably be harder
26 Years
167. The First Times of Life 2.0
You said : In my mind, I understand that life 2.0 is again ENDLESS “FIRST TIMES”. It is the “first
Forgiving
166. The Art of Letting Go
You said : 🌿 Do you want us to create a “letting go” ritual together – words you could say
Forgiving
165. Forgiving Without an Apology
You said : It would be much easier to forgive if Emma admitted that she was also to blame for
Life 2.0
164. Life 2.0
You said : Forgive yourself for blaming Emma . Maybe Emma made mistakes, maybe she wasn’t perfect, but now, if
Family
163. The Second Loss
You said : Nothing is getting better – the suffering is unspeakable, nothing helps. We need to figure out why
26 Years
162.Why After 26 Years?
You said : 26 YEARS TOGETHER 26!!!!!!! GOD YOU DIDN’T BREAK OUR MARRIAGE EARLY WHEN YOU COULD AFTER 9 YEARS,
Suffering and Grace
161. When I Can’t Suffer Anymore
You said : The desire to fight in the worship of God and Jesus Christ – this means that your